Today I woke up nice and warm but still reeling from three nights on shift. I felt a bit groggy, checked my phone, then replied to the missed messages. I went ver to see Mum which I am partial too in the morning as we can wake up whatever time of day it is. Toast and jam and juice and herbal tea, I made it but we shared it.
Mum with me about went out to "walk" JJ and so she did in half a foot of snow on her battery powered buggy. I love how mum can do what people say she can't or shouldn't. I hope and like to think I have a bit of that inside. A spirit filled with special fuel, resolute in taking on the task of our dreaming mind. I watched ever so often as she rocked back ad forth determined to look after JJ and get traction in the snow. I will keep this memory in mind when I feel a bit of a struggle at hand.
I used my indoor trainer for a bit over an hour half an hour in stunning boredom and the other half zoned out trying not to give into the temptation to go anaerobic. There will be times for that but not today. A sign though that I am feeling good.
Off to the movies with dear friends, first though stop and see my cousin. Friend of my Dad. Wife to a strong man who has in recent times inspired me from afar. It was a good feeling for me in their home, but private so no more on that. At the movies we saw Avatar. I thought it was brilliant and saw my own message in it, a good one. In some ways this year I and hopefully into the next I feel like that man stepping into new skin. I remember how I was how I am and how I hope I will be. I have learned some patience and returned to an old feeling one I have not known for some time.
My mind is clear today, I have a goal which I will complete well. I love my beautiful wife she gives me energy. She also keeps me in touch with being. x
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